To publish or not to publish…That is the question.
Okay, I wrote the book. Then I re-wrote it five times. Now what? You’re probably thinking–You publish it, dummy. Well, it’s not that simple. It’s almost as big a commitment to self-publish a book as it is to write it. The hardest part is promotion. (See “Book Marketing 101“). To paraphrase, it’s a huge undertaking of time, energy and money. And the results almost never equal expectations, to put it mildly.
So I’m thinking, does the world really need another Vampire novel? Yes, it has a few unique elements, but will the world be a better place with my book in it.
I brought this burning question with me to a weekend retreat in Atlanta. On Sunday, late in the afternoon, an answer arrived. Actually, it was more of a solution than an answer. Write an author’s note and insert it on the last page of the book, a voice told me.
At the core of the novel is a young man’s struggle with darkness and light. The vampire archetype, it turns out, is a metaphor for the (my) heart’s dream to realize its Divine Nature. This is what gives the story “socially redeeming value,” I realized in perfect twenty-twenty hindsight.
So now, I feel more confident and motivated to publish the book. I expressed my thoughts differently in the author’s note to communicate them in more broadly digestible terms. Here’s what I wrote:
Since writing the first draft of “Scarlet Ambrosia,” I’ve gone through many changes. Fortunately, most of them are for the better. To put it succinctly, I’ve found a new process of self-discovery. This new process has allowed me to see Devon Furst’s journey in the story from a new perspective.
Along with his battle against Egon Schiller, Devon’s other major conflict is the struggle between the forces of darkness and light within himself. This conflict corresponded to my own struggle with these forces when I wrote the novel. I’m not speaking of alcohol, drugs, or any other type of addiction here. I’m speaking of my struggle to find peace, contentment, happiness, and a deeply felt purpose to my life.
As I write this, I’m happy to say my new “process” has taken me a long way towards experiencing what I’ve been longing to find for most of my adult life. By the way, it has nothing to do with becoming a vampire.